Tuesday, January 01, 2013

Well, hell...

...this seems to be a yearly thing now. I am managing to do the New Year post on New Year's day this year, as opposed to the 8th so well done, me, on that score.

Last year's big list of to do:



Three OU modules (and a resit).
The usual Men's Health 10K in October.
Half marathon (you heard me) in May.
A play (maybeprobablyhopesomightnot)

I did not manage all of these things. I did two rather than three OU modules - and the resit. But those I did do, I did well in, so I'm calling the OU a win for 2012. I'm still on track to get a First and that's what I wants. The doing of two rather than three modules has meant I've had a wee break from the studies since sitting last exam in October. Next module - in which I need to get an 85% average - doesn't technically start until Feb but - 85% average and all - the intention is to kick off with pre-reading pretty soon. Next week in fact. All told, I'm enjoying it and the week long research residential in July was a serious highlight of my year. It was a brilliant week, spent at the University of Sussex campus with some incredibly and incredibly like-minded people. Not a dull person there and I got persistently lucky with those I met and worked with. It was also rewarding and reassuring to meet other people who are locked in the sometimes-lonely OU. I'm luck enough that my closest folk get how busy I am / have been with it and all, and understand its importance to me, but getting to chat to people who are going through the same experience was another thing entirely. The research itself was interesting, the social aspect was great (drinking in student bars carries its own rewards), a day out in Brighton including a swim in the sparkling, if chilly sea, was a highlight of the highlight. The sun shone down the whole week and it'll remain a sparkly memory for me too. The exam in October was tough. Not a nightmare, the questions were reasonable, but it was hard going to prepare for as there wasn't a lot of narrowing available in what topics you covered, but the paper itself was fair in the end and I got a good result despite having a panic attack and blanking on the first question (research evidence of the differences between male and female brains - can you believe I forgot to include brain scan studies? Muppet). I'm told that Social Psych - this year's module, is a lot easier than Cognitive so here's hoping.


I didn't do a half-marathon or the Men's Health 10K. I was in Venice (more below!) the same weekend as the 10K and in May, the OU was seriously kicking my ass. I'd either just had or was just about to have my resit for Child Development and I decided that training for a half-marathon really wasn't on the cards time-wise. And this year, I've been consistently at the gym, fit and healthy. Maybe not right now, I'm 'carrying a bit of holiday weight' and I've been a bit poorly but it won't take long to get back into it. Plus, I had serious reason to be fit this year. I did do a play...Dr Faustus by Chris Marlowe (D Grimes, director) and it was a ball. Rehearsals had their ups and down (especially for D Grimes, director, who broke his wrist going from up to down, poor fella), but as always the whole h-experience was way over on the positive side. The performances were fun to do and - I come back to my earlier point on fitness - done in our pants, for the most part. Seven deadly sins in their underwear. What's not fun about that? It was a very liberating experience, actually. Once you've been near-naked in front of eight-odd audience members including a whole bunch of workmates there's very little, I think, that could much phase a person. Interesting to note how much more comfortable we became with each other as a cast throughout the week too. At the start, we all clung to our tshirts until the last possible minute, but towards the end of the week we were cheerfully stripped down from the pre-performance warm-up. Which included a fair bit of bouncing. Back on the fitness thing, I do intend a few runs this year. Definitely the Men's Health 10K as I did proper miss doing that, it's good fun. Not that I was sorry to go to Venice, y'understand.


Yeah. The Serene Republic! Had exam on the Thursday, then flew to Venice on the Friday for the long weekend, which included by birthday. Amazing city. Very nice food and good company in the person of Miss Liz. Pleasingly anodyne from examexamexam. Highlights in the Peggy Guggenheim Collection, the guided tour of the Grand Canal (a definite recommend if you go, surprisingly good although we did have a very cheery tour guide and got lucky in our seats right up at the front), and seeing your actual Hieronymus Bosch, Garden of Unearthly Delights in the Doge's Palace. I was kind of unmoved by St Mark's Plaza, which was surprising, but I think I had an overly romantic idea of what it'd be like in my head. The rest more than made up for that, to the point of said disappointment being a moment's 'oh, well' and a shrug. The architecture and general 'being' of the city was amazing. Am totally going back at some point as the four days didn't in any way include everything I would want to do, but that's also a plus point, I think. There was also a fella around about this time. Not in Venice, at home. A pleasing few months in good company which he suddenly took away in early November. If I'm honest, still a bit sad about that, but not a lot to do but take some once offered very fine advice - look cheerful and keep busy. Likely you soon will be.


Photography was not much done this year. I would have liked to have done more, but I really am bumping my head off there only being so much energy in the Reynolds. I would once have said time, but there probably is time, but with a demanding job, the demands of studies and a desire to be at the gym a bunch of times in the week, it's tough to conjure a lot of other activities. I did a few shoots in the year and I was happy with the results so I'm focussing on that. And that does reflect my attitude towards my photography these days. I applaud those who carry their cameras with them at all times, but I tend towards having an image or a plan in my head that I want to carry out and then putting effort into that rather than a lot of random snapping or keeping my eye out. I think that's a focus thing, too, actually. I - along with most artists, I think - need to be in the right headspace to create something good. At the moment, my head is in a few spaces so just wandering and seeking an image isn't the right thing for me just now. But like the little girl, I'd say that when I'm good...



Prometheus

Yoga Shiva


We're waiting


Basilica Santa Maria della Salute


So a part of this year's goals is a do-able number of shoots. Going by the above, six is a do-able number. I think that's fair, if you take into account m'chat about intention, and planning. I don't just go for wander and look for a pretty tree to snap any more. Not that there's anything wrong with pretty trees. I love a pretty tree.Work continues fine. I'm not necessarily hugely challenge by it anymore, but the team I work with are outstanding. Hardworking, supportive and fun. Several superb nights out have also been highlights of this year although I feel I'm being led astray at time. Honestly, it's never been my idea. Especially the thing with the iron hoops. I realise 'fine' isn't exactly the most enthused word in the world, but it's accurate. Nothing wrong with it, and I'm grateful for a well-paid, rewarding job working with good people that's also (and frankly not least!) a twenty-minute commute. I'm just ready for the next thing. Patience on that score, though. Which brings us back ground to the OU and Goals for the year. :)


Get a distinction in Social Psychology, thusly securing a First overall once I pick up the Level 1 modules in 2014.Do six photoshoots, let's say at least three of those as 'I want to take your photos'.Run in the Men's Health 10K in Edinburgh and two other runs.A play (although this one depends on being cast in said play).And let's shoot aspirational - be happy. :)


Going on the previous two years it's likely I'll catch up here in January 2014. So until then...

Semper superne nitens,

C :)





Sunday, January 08, 2012

Thought I'd catch myself up

It's long since been new year's day and all that, but f*ck me, but 2011 was a busy one. I did all sorts. Some of it was in previous posts (gloating), like the award for 39 Steps and the sheer joy of doing the play itself. Also did some, if not a great deal, of photography. Miss Liz (my wife) and I have coined a new term, awesome fatigue. As in we look at some of the photos we create, and go 'well, it's all right. I suppose.' I totally have to give here the 'we' these days'. Which is to say she has a more or less equal hand in creating the photo, not that I provide her with liquid excreta.

I will take a big old chunk of the credit for most of the execution, but in terms of quality ideas, sly motivational techniques and wings she's right up there. That, amongst a great many other endearing and impressive qualities, got her to the front row. I mean, check it:

Stairway

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OU is going well. Apart from having been sick on day of my Child Development exam and now having to resit the fecker. Bah. Incoming seriously heavy year of study. Cognitive Psychology amongst other things. I look forward to it and actually is part of the reason for the blog post. Bit of a brain dump and starting afresh with the power routine. Went very well last year, up until September which was a total crash and burn but that was due to waaaay too much on the plate and downing from doing the play in August. I have learned from that experience. I'm not sure what, exactly, but I definitely learned. *sigh* Probably to not do a play in August, but I really really want to. We'll have to see how things go. If I also want a First (which I do - with a fiery passion) then I need to get a distinction in Cog Psych. But I'll have done several TMAs (tutor marked assignments) by the time I'd be auditioning for anyting Fringe-ified so I should have a decent idea of how I'm going. Level 3 module is Cog Psych so a bit of a cut above what I've been doing so far.

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Work. Yeah. Um...let's move right along, shall we?

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Still a complete lack of husband. Honestly. Where are all the eligible, handsome, witty, intelligent well-dressed (GAY!) men? Eh? Is it so much to ask?

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So this year is:

Three OU modules (and a resit).
The usual Men's Health 10K in October.
Half marathon (you heard me) in May.
A play (maybeprobablyhopesomightnot)

And that'll probably do, to be honest. One thing I definitely will be (WILL. BE.) doing this year is not too much. Only so many hours in the day and fuel in the tank, eh?

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Semper superne nitens (bitches),

C :)

Sunday, September 11, 2011

Commitment

Given that it's 1am and I'm not less than a given value of drunk, I'm not going to wax philosphical on commitment. I totally could, you understand, I'm just not going to.

I do hereby commit to hit the 2016 Burning Man with Jenni (word to ya, the small sister!). I can totally be that guy who hits forty and says, "Oh yeah, I really took a new direction this year; I went to Burning Man and I really feel that I found myself in that environment."

You know. A wanker. :)

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Semper superne nitens,

C

Thursday, September 08, 2011

I still think she's here



Le chat, that is. Miss Patsy. Coming home I thought "I'll go and squirrel in bed with laptop," leading to concomitant and largely visual thoughts of "but the cat..." Only she's not here, you see. She's dead. Some time ago, now. Some months, anyway, which is what allows me to use the bleak term. At the time I took refuge in 'gone to the vet' or 'she's away.' Miss her dreadfully but it's what you sign up for. They don't last.

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Not so very cheerful start, eh? And it has, in fact, been an 80% cheerful year, I'd say. Downsides of incosiderate doctors (not medically and, actually, with some truly wicked smile moments) and some work troubles too tiresome to go in to.

On the upside - and I write this post as I enjoy reading back and thinking 'actually, yeah, that was good' - it's been a joyous year for creativity. Although I haven't done a lot of the 'tography, what I have done has been very much transferring what's in my head into an image. Deeply satisfying. I don't draw often, so I'm not very good at it and have been continually frustrated by this. Being able to make the picture in my head real is satisfying all the way down to my bones. In general, feel free to check them out.

www.flickr.com/photos/readwrite

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Acting. Out-frickin'-standing.

I'm stuck as to how to say it so I'm going to go with childish glee. We only went and won a bloody award!

I performed in the 39 Steps with Arkle. I don't think (hope) that anyone in the process would jump up and down and swear at me for saying the process itself had its ups and downs, but the actual week of performance was a fucking joy. I truly have not had a more fulfilling experience in theatre and I am thankful for it.

Oh, and yeah. Won an Evening News Drama Award for Best Production. *polishes fingernails*

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And I would wax greater philosophical, but maybe another time. In another year. :)

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Semper superne nitens,

C

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Never enough time

Certainly not for everything I wish to do. I occasionally think about my sixth year at school's botched attempted at a yearbook. Doomed for failure from the start what with there being a maximum of twenty of us in sixth year. One of the things we did manage was for each of us to write a couple of paragraphs on ourselves; aspirations and such. I had a great many. The fella who was editing the yearbook took great exception to this, I couldn't possibly do all of these things. Looking back, I've actually done quite a lot of them or at least am making reasonable headway toward.

That said, there's never going to be enough time. But choice, focus; these are good things.

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Just finished being Puck.

That merry wanderer of the night...

Was awesomes. Definitely a big tick on my 'things to do while alive'.

In a tiny bit of a slump following, however. Unsurprisingly. Plays - or other significant events - are like that. Pile energy and energy and energy into them and then, all of a sudden, they're done. And the energy seems to go with them.

I wisely took a few more days off than needed, though. Plus, Jane and Clare - lovely London friends - came up to see the play and to do Festival things so we went out and had a passing lovely time on Sunday. Went to see Smoke and Mirrors at the Spiegeltent, amongst other things. Which links back to never enough time. I'm totally running away to join the circus.

Or maybe just join aerial classes with Miss Kim. That would be a cool answer for 'what you doing tonight' on Tuesdays? 'Trapeze, actually.' :D

Speaking of people coming to see, I was very fortunate / flattered that a great many came to see the show; 38 in all, with (sorry the rest) Jane, Clare and Barbara winning the 'most effort' prize for distance travelled. Hope it was worth even the smaller effort for the most local. Which, everyone, flatteringly, said it was. But these are my friends so they may have been lying...

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And on to what's next. As discussed with some few, I'm totally doing at least A N Other play next year. The intention was to not do any more theatre for a while, and concentrate on OU studies. But plays are just too much fun, I have decided so I'll have to find the time somewhere.

Next three OU modules should all be grand; Exploring Psychology, Biological Psychology and Developmental Psychology. I've done the latter two before and, while I was a bit daunted by the bio-stuff, I've started doing a bit of reading and am finding it far more fascinating than I did previously. I think possibly I have more confidence in my learning abilities than once I did. And if it all starts to get too terribly much, I have both Ellie - psych lecturer pal - and not commiting to any plays until Spring of next year anyway so I'll have a definite feel for how well / much I'm doing by then.

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In the meantime, I've signed up for (very manly!) 10K. Men's Health Survival of the Fittest. Ten weeks from Saturday behind us there. Am feeling reasonably fit at the moment so looking forward to it, with a bit more training.

FriendRich has also signed up, which is excellent. A pal to train with is hugely motivational.

Also need to get back into photography, which has lagged for the last month or so and my Flickr contacts have been doing jaw-dropping things of late. Much inspiration. Check out TCB and Lapp Pro De, as for instances.

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Today has been my first day of Nothing in quite some time. Haven't even showered yet - lazy bugger! Watched a movie, read a book, slept incredibly late. All quite delightful. Tomorrow; back on the merry merry merry-go-round.

And my wee to do list for the next year or so...let's say by 35th birthday. (Yikes - middle age!!!)


10K (and maybe a half marathon)
Finish the Gnome fishing story
Organise an exhibition of my light painting photos
Three OU modules
A play of some sort
Driving Licence - I'd forgotten that one. Start lessons on the 6th of September.

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Semper superne nitens - because otherwise life is Too Boring,

C

Saturday, May 29, 2010

Utter procrastination

Woot! To quote a certain film: "I got the part! I'm going to play Puck! I'm going to play Puck!"

Many things will lead from this. First one is complete and utter glee. It's right up there on my list of 'things to do while alive' (I don't do 'before I'm dead' - so dreary a way to look at it. So a Big Tick in the life column. Also - getting fit. Has been a goal for quite some time now, mostly in my head, but I'm told the costume is being designed to a factor of skimpy, so the love handles need sorting. Towards this, I'm started *shudder* focussed exercise. There's some good sites - onehundredpushups.com (etc - sit-ups, squats, chin-ups). You do as many as you can then it gives you a programme to build from there.

The utter procrastination comes from the fact that I've just completed todays push-ups and squats and I am a bit bushed for now doing the hoovering. So blogging. Blogging becomes important.

I'm also planning to dye my hair green. :D But not for a while.

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I have once again been playing with fire.

Oh. Hell. Yeah.

Definitely go team on that lot, though. Came a Liz, and a Kim, and a Rich, and an Ivan, and a Sonja, and a Helen. All of whom are simply the best minions money couldn't buy.

Did I say minions? *insert preferred term here*

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The OU is going to well. Not a great deal to talk about. I'm reading chapters, and sitting quizes and getting through them grand. Even if it is only multiple choice...

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Semper superne nitens,

C

Saturday, May 15, 2010

Hatred and Psychic Abilities

It's amazing what you value in your friends.

I have been playing with fire. It's *awesome*. Take the next opportunity to do something your mother told you not to. Seriously. Make this a goal for the week.

Mental

SteveO hates me. This makes me cheerful as he and I collectively hate these people. I mean, seriously; how good to you have to be? It's offensive.

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Liz is psychic. Or we are psychic together. One of the two. We half decided not to bother talking in the future as it seemed somewhat redundant, but any opportunity for affirmation is a good opportunity.

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It has been busy since my last post. There has been a play; A Madman Sings to the Mood by Mark Thompson. I played the part of Frank, a 'PR Man' and total and utter prick. Serious fun. And seriously unmitigated character. It's always way better playing the baddies.

Mr Thompson is the artistic director of the Lyceum Theatre Company in Edinburgh and he was kind enough to come see us. Also hung out a bit after the play and bought us some champagne. He professed to be pleased with the performance which was flattering and pleasing. Also pleasing was the positive reaction from m'pals and colleagues who were all supportive enough to come along. Always a bit nervous about asking people to come along, as it might suck / they might hate it and they've given up not only their time but their hard-earned to be there. Everyone very positive, though, and I have several friends - even the untelepathic ones - who have *no* problems with honesty. i.e. if it had sucked, they'd have said so.

Overwhelmingly positive experience, rehearsal and performance. Co-actors were very professional in their outlook and ability, as was director and the company, Arkle, is very well managed. Have auditioned for A Midsummer Night's Dream, as Puck, for the Festival, but not finding out about that for a couple of weeks.

Have always always always wanted to play the part, but have two mitigating circumstances. One - I already have a holiday booked for the week of the performance. Oops. But have spoken to the friends (hi guys!) I am ostensibly going with and they are understanding the dream-partness of it all.

Secondly - have started my OU degree. Only one module to kick off with, but it's a serious investment of time. That + a play = who *really* needs sleep?

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Semper superne nitens!

C :)